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It’s my birthday today…. who cares? Right, it is just another day of the year. But with all these tragic catastrophes happened past week – about how bad Japan being hit by earthquake and then tsunami, about colleagues from previous company passing away (quite suddenly), about relatives being diagnosed with health problems, … my heart is heavy.
Surrender – it’s the word that caught my ear and mind. On this early morning, I am thinking hard on this word – can I commit to that? Do I see the world and my life differently when I am willingly to surrender my whole self for the divine guidance? I still have trouble to realize what it means and to reconcile with own fears of losing control. At this moment, I can sense the answer is already there, deep inside. It’s the promise that I need to make.
I have not made any ‘birthday’ wish so far – perhaps it is the one. Am I ready for it?
It’s a refreshing experience.
I didn’t prepare that much for an interview for such a long time and it’s an interesting, but anxious, exercise of how I looked at my past and future. Relating the past skills for a new industry, but a kind of job profile that I had done years ago, was not as easy as I thought. How could I make it more relevant while not over-shooting? How could I sell myself without being too arrogant? And, (damn) what to say about to introduce myself in an impressive way?
During the interview, I felt the little fire in my belly, and the brain engine warmed up gradually to its normal / fast speed. Strategic Qs? No problem. Be pragmatic in striking workable options for various kinds of work scenarios? No problem. “How do you see your past experience fit in this role?” …. umm, I guess myself talking too long then.
It was almost two full hours of first meeting – I must be making an impressive talk in many areas, except showing adequately on ”MARKETING” expertise. Sure, I was working in marketing role for some years, but in fact, my strengths really lied in strategy (analysis, delivery) and project management …. ie get things done. Feedback – “she’s great but kind of modest” …. what does it mean?
After thoughts - a) I still have that marketability; b) self-doubt is self-imposed but also the biggest challenge; c) I do need to answer myself the question of ’what next’. It’s a matter of focus and direction.
